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Friday, January 22, 2016

First World Prey

[Prompt: a rabbit hopping through my back yard]

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Jacob sat on his porch and watched a rabbit scoot across the scrub desert behind his home.  It moved in bursts between creosote bushes, stopping at each in a grey-brown rock like hunch to sense: nose twitching, ears flicking, eyes wide.  Jacob thought that it was most likely out in the morning sun looking for something to eat.  Why else would a rabbit ever leave its hole and risk being food itself?

He took a sip of his coffee and leaned back in his chair.  The rabbit moved to another bush and nibbled on something.  Fear, Jacob realized, is what drove it.  Fear of starvation pushed it out of its safe hiding place.  Fear of predators kept it constantly searching with ears and nose and eyes.   Everything that drove this rabbit and its kin was fear.  Even their evolution was all derived by fear: sound catching ears, wide view eyes, ground colored fur.   It was easy for humans to personify small creatures like that rabbit.  To call them cute and curious.  But there is little of that moment-by-moment fear left in urbanized, cultured humanity.

Instead, humanity has embraced a policy of the-best-defense-is-a-good-offense, removing predators and immediate environmental dangers.  Arming themselves with weapons of such power that no other creatures, with their nature-derived claws and teeth and muscles can hope to compete.  Not on a global, species-wide scale.  What is a mouthful of teeth to a rifle?  A charging horn or antler to a bulldozer or paving machine?  A stinger to a crop-duster?

There were certainly parts of the globe where that fear still existed, even for humans.  Most of those were, however, perpetuated by humans where both prey and predator were played by the same species. Warlords preying on the local population.  Countries sending their youth to defend lines drawn on a map.  All justified through an us-or-them line of thinking.

Watching the rabbit, Jacob in his chair with his coffee outside his cinder block and stucco house, wondered what, if anything, humanity had lost by removing all of these immediate dangers.  Was there an edge to that fear that forced a different, more cautious set of actions?  Or by removing them, had they freed themselves to pursue a wider range of pursuits than mere survival?  Can art survive and evolve in a climate of constant fear?

Smiling, Jacob stood and waved at the rabbit before going inside to refill his cup.  The questions that he asked himself were soon to be something more than rhetorical.  He knew where the species-wide existential crisis would come from.  Not from talons sweeping from the sky or fangs striking in the dark.  No, it would instead come from within, something that created due to that very freedom from fear.  He had had the time to learn, to study and to create.  To build something small, but so very powerful.  More than a virus or a disease.  Nothing so mindless.  Something much more unexpected.

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Failing

[Inspired by PowerBall Mania]



Abby reached over and turned off her alarm.  She rolled over, pulling her comforter to her chest, not ready to get up and face a new day.  A day of beige cubicles, meetings mired in minutiae and the endless petty slights of an overcrowded office.  A day of struggling through crowded streets both pre-dawn and post-dusk only to lock the world away for too short a time before doing it all again.

And then she remembered: the drawing had been last night.  The drawing for the record payout from the national lottery.  Abby had forgone her morning latte for a week, her one daily luxury, in order to maximize her chances, taking them from ludicrously bad to ridiculously poor.  Forty dollars had netted her twenty chances: two cheap slips of thermal paper stuffed into her purse replacing the pair of crisp twenties still warm from the ATM.  Each slip with its matrix of randomly generated numbers rank with potential, promise, possibilities.

Turning back to the nightstand, she reached for her purse, blindly fingering through the debris until she found first her phone and then the two slips.  She sat up, pushing her fingers through her hair and rubbing her eyes.  A few taps on the phone screen took her to the lottery site which had the winning numbers blazed across the page.  Abby slapped the phone face down on her lap before her eyes could register the information.  She closed her eyes.

If she looked then it would all be over.  She knew the chances.  She knew that it was as good as impossible that she would win.  Even beyond the statistics, she knew that she would not win.  Not her.  Not the girl who was always just good enough.   Whose annual review was peppered with the words "dependable" and "solid" and "on time".  Who got dates with the guys who were too insecure to go after the hot chicks.  Who had received good supporting parts in the school plays, but never the lead.  No.  Abby did not win lotteries.

What she did do was dream.  She dreamed of living somewhere with grass and sunlight.  She dreamed of travel and sandy beaches and ocean waters the color of the sky.  She dreamed of trying new things: foods, skills, adventures.  She dreamed of doing these new things and knowing that it was okay if she failed.  Okay that she could not play the guitar or write a novel or sing well.  Nothing depended on her succeeding because she would still be able to pay her bills, still be able to eat, still have someplace with a bed to sleep in.

Abby knew that when she flipped the phone over and compared the numbers on the screen with her twenty sets of chances that the grass and the light and freedom to fail would all disappear.  They only lived as long as she did not look.  It was like something out of her dimly remembered "Physics for Poets" college class, that part where the professor had tried to get them to understand the impossibility of quantum mechanics.  That thing where particles existed everywhere until they were actually observed.  She felt that way about the tickets: they could still be winning tickets until she looked.  Then it would all be over.

She looked at the clock and knew that she needed to get up, shower, eat something and get out the door or she would be late.  She could not sit here mourning her not-quite-dead dreams any longer.  Maybe that was the problem: she was not committing to winning the lottery.  That was what all of the self-help, get-ahead, win-with-confidence books said.  She needed to commit to success, to change her life as if she had already won.  Quit her job, max out all her credit and know that she was going to win.  She was going to lose because she could not commit to winning.  Abby was dubious that that level of self-assurance worked on anything and certain that it did not work on statistical probability.

Abby closed her eyes, took a deep breath and turned the phone back over.  She opened her eyes back up and scanned the numbers, comparing the six on the screen against those on the two slips.  Then she closed her eyes again and tried not to fail.  She still could not afford to.

Saturday, January 2, 2016

HitRecord Weekly Writing Challenge

http://www.hitrecord.org/records/1912608

Gravity: Three Haiku

Your eyes are star filled,
Their depths pulling me towards
The promise of us.

Momentum keeps us
Spinning our lives together,
Circling our hopes.

Burning, we crash through
An atmosphere of regret.
Promise, hope in smoke.